A note from the future

This site represents things that I, Matt Dragon, though worthy of posting to the internet to be publicly consumed from age 18-27. Many of those things were, and are, wrong. I used words here at the time I hadn't bothered to educate myself about the harms of. The fact they were more widely used then doesn't absolve my use of them. Many of my opinions reek of what I now understand to be white male privilege.

But I'm not going to take those posts or this site down. For one because it wouldn't matter, the internet is forever and people would still be able to find it. But also because it's important to acknowledge that people should and do change over time. Merely changing doesn't reverse the wrongs or forgive us of what we said or did before. But the actions we take in response to those personal changes should be evaluated to see if they can offset at least some of the harms we caused. I no longer believe people are beyond redemption if they put in the work and the communities their prior words or acts hurt decide to accept their help going forward.

Taking this down entirely wouldn't address the harms nor hold me accountable. So instead I'm adding this note and asking people to evaluate for themselves if they think that 2021 Matt has done enough to offset 2010 Matt. To be honest, these were not my worst takes. Around this time I also stated less publicly that when people run from the police they should hit them with their cars to catch them. If you run you must have done something, right? I had an argument with someone about how no one who wasn't guilty would ever confess to a crime. (Sorry random dude in MegaBYTES)

Obviously those takes were bad, uninformed, and I was wrong for voicing then at the time. I share them because I feel they represent how easy it was to feel empowered as a white male teenager and young adult despite knowing almost nothing. I share them because I think they represent the rock bottom of my opinions and show how much someone's thoughts can change when you simply seek out first hand knowledge and then listen.

Those are just terrible opinions I can remember right now. I'm sure there were others. I haven't exhaustively read all the posts here so there may be similar or worse things I said here. But today, I'm writing letters to the editor about the need for civilian oversight over jails and the police and advocating for the police to be taken out of traffic enforcement. I'm speaking at County Commissioners meetings about civilian jail oversight and the need for accountability. I'm constantly trying to unlearn my bad habits and challenge my initial responses to things. Not because the world has changed but because I have learned to listen. Because people took the risk, the time, and the emotional effort to share and luckily I realized I needed to hear them.

So I leave this up, with this now lengthy disclaimer to try to push folks reading my bad takes to also learn to listen, and to be explicit, not always and only listen to white dudes like me. Where I'm at now, I'm trying to lift other voices. Folks actually experiencing the struggles I have ideas about trying to lessen or solve. Folks who's opinions I trust not because they have degrees or status, but because they're talking about their community, their friends, their family, their life, their struggles. For some of my later posts elsewhere, I chose to channel Dennis Miller when naming that blog. That decision didn't age any better than he did. He's now a racist bigot or at least he is publicly, maybe he always was. He's probably beyond redemption at this point. Andrew Gutmann is probably beyond redemption too, but it's honestly not my decision. I think people definitely can change, and they can change for better or for worse.

So I've done some more recent writing elsewhere that, if you want to read it, is definitely more informed, less self absorbed, with fewer blind spots, and just generally better all around.

My whiteness and maleness have given me all the second, third, and fourth chances anyone could ever ask for. It's up to me to prove I've changed for the better. Hopefully this is a step in that direction.

found this awhile ago but never remembered to post it

posted 12/19/2005 10:09:39 by matt flesch-kincaid: 57, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
this says something about how far we as a society have fallen...

just awesome...

posted 12/19/2005 10:08:27 by matt flesch-kincaid: 95, grade level: 1 commentscomments(0) linklink
just read it nothing i say can match this.

get off my tv you douchebag...

posted 12/18/2005 22:01:58 by matt flesch-kincaid: 55, grade level: 12 commentscomments(0) linklink
when i turn on fox at 9pm on a sunday night i do not ever under any circumstances see this douchbag
he is not my president, he wasn't my fault either time, and i think that we all know who would make a better president...
that's right, you've all been thinking it, i actually said it.

they don't even pretend to not be killing off freedom of the press

posted 12/18/2005 13:16:29 by matt flesch-kincaid: -5, grade level: 24 commentscomments(0) linklink
"After The New York Times reported, and CNN confirmed, a claim that Bush gave the National Security Agency license to eavesdrop on Americans communicating with people overseas, the president said that his actions were permissible, but that leaking the revelation to the media was illegal." other things likely to become illegal and a threat to national security, democracy, freedom of speech, abortion, not being a religious fanatic, evolution, the phrase "happy holidays", non-white anglosaxon protestants, and people who are mean to poor little georgy bush.

changing the way a component displays in a framework

posted 12/18/2005 11:27:19 by matt flesch-kincaid: 56, grade level: 11 commentscomments(0) linklink
so i know googling for answers to my problems in people's blogs has helped me in the past so i figured why not... i ran into a problem where i need to display a form object in my framework with each element in the form either wrapped in table rows or in divs, etc. so I think the best solution is to add a reference to a display class to the form class. rather than calling the form classes own display method it would call the display class's display method. the benefit to this would be you could change the display object between calls to display and it would display differently. the other benefit is i can have the constructor for the form object set the display object to itself ($this in php) and it'll handle the default case. then if i need to change the way something is going to display i can just set ($form->displayObject) to an object that has the display method I want to use. I guess the only complicating factor is my display object will have to have a link back to my form object so it can get at the data for the form, but that's manageable.

a little piece of delbarton history...

posted 12/16/2005 16:28:13 by matt flesch-kincaid: 21, grade level: 25 commentscomments(0) linklink
2005 Topps Chrome Refractor Autograph of Wes Swackhamer
Unfortunately the auction is already closed, but come on, you know you want one. You want to be like "I went to highschool with that kid, and I remember when he got caught driving drunk with two other kids who weren't as good at sports as he was so they got kicked out"

i always knew that guy was up to no good...

posted 12/05/2005 12:15:50 by matt flesch-kincaid: 57, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
from flats: ronald mcdonald robs a wendy's. oh boston, how i'd love to hear you say "wicked" and pronounce his name as rahnald machdanald while covering this story.