A note from the future

This site represents things that I, Matt Dragon, though worthy of posting to the internet to be publicly consumed from age 18-27. Many of those things were, and are, wrong. I used words here at the time I hadn't bothered to educate myself about the harms of. The fact they were more widely used then doesn't absolve my use of them. Many of my opinions reek of what I now understand to be white male privilege.

But I'm not going to take those posts or this site down. For one because it wouldn't matter, the internet is forever and people would still be able to find it. But also because it's important to acknowledge that people should and do change over time. Merely changing doesn't reverse the wrongs or forgive us of what we said or did before. But the actions we take in response to those personal changes should be evaluated to see if they can offset at least some of the harms we caused. I no longer believe people are beyond redemption if they put in the work and the communities their prior words or acts hurt decide to accept their help going forward.

Taking this down entirely wouldn't address the harms nor hold me accountable. So instead I'm adding this note and asking people to evaluate for themselves if they think that 2021 Matt has done enough to offset 2010 Matt. To be honest, these were not my worst takes. Around this time I also stated less publicly that when people run from the police they should hit them with their cars to catch them. If you run you must have done something, right? I had an argument with someone about how no one who wasn't guilty would ever confess to a crime. (Sorry random dude in MegaBYTES)

Obviously those takes were bad, uninformed, and I was wrong for voicing then at the time. I share them because I feel they represent how easy it was to feel empowered as a white male teenager and young adult despite knowing almost nothing. I share them because I think they represent the rock bottom of my opinions and show how much someone's thoughts can change when you simply seek out first hand knowledge and then listen.

Those are just terrible opinions I can remember right now. I'm sure there were others. I haven't exhaustively read all the posts here so there may be similar or worse things I said here. But today, I'm writing letters to the editor about the need for civilian oversight over jails and the police and advocating for the police to be taken out of traffic enforcement. I'm speaking at County Commissioners meetings about civilian jail oversight and the need for accountability. I'm constantly trying to unlearn my bad habits and challenge my initial responses to things. Not because the world has changed but because I have learned to listen. Because people took the risk, the time, and the emotional effort to share and luckily I realized I needed to hear them.

So I leave this up, with this now lengthy disclaimer to try to push folks reading my bad takes to also learn to listen, and to be explicit, not always and only listen to white dudes like me. Where I'm at now, I'm trying to lift other voices. Folks actually experiencing the struggles I have ideas about trying to lessen or solve. Folks who's opinions I trust not because they have degrees or status, but because they're talking about their community, their friends, their family, their life, their struggles. For some of my later posts elsewhere, I chose to channel Dennis Miller when naming that blog. That decision didn't age any better than he did. He's now a racist bigot or at least he is publicly, maybe he always was. He's probably beyond redemption at this point. Andrew Gutmann is probably beyond redemption too, but it's honestly not my decision. I think people definitely can change, and they can change for better or for worse.

So I've done some more recent writing elsewhere that, if you want to read it, is definitely more informed, less self absorbed, with fewer blind spots, and just generally better all around.

My whiteness and maleness have given me all the second, third, and fourth chances anyone could ever ask for. It's up to me to prove I've changed for the better. Hopefully this is a step in that direction.

what about williams?

posted 05/30/2007 17:02:40 by matt flesch-kincaid: 121, grade level: -3 commentscomments(0) linklink

she makes a good point

posted 05/22/2007 17:51:18 by matt flesch-kincaid: 23, grade level: 10 commentscomments(0) linklink
indexed is a great blog, either despite or due to it's distinct lack of words.

what are we waiting for? impeach the idiot already

posted 05/22/2007 08:34:53 by matt flesch-kincaid: 41, grade level: 13 commentscomments(0) linklink
msnbc's highly un-scientific poll is showing 88% of those polled think bush should be impeached. but with votes approaching 500,000 even if you account for the fact that people sampled in an internet poll, are largely middle to upper class, intelligent, and educated, that's still a very telling number. sure someone could have deleted their cookie and voted again 100,000 times, but even impeachment has 84% support.

nbc sports pulls a heidi

posted 05/21/2007 18:31:45 by matt flesch-kincaid: 38, grade level: 15 commentscomments(0) linklink
my angry email to nbc sports about pulling a "heidi" by cutting away from the series deciding overtime hockey game this weekend to show the 1 hour and 20 minute pre-show for the preakness: (they even called them out on sportscenter: espn 1, nbc sports 0)
I was shocked to see that you would cut away from sudden death, overtime, series ending overtime to start your absurdly over-hyped, drawn out, incredible overkill of one hour and 5 minute pre-show for a 2 minute race. Certainly people watch the race, which even as I write this is still 20 minutes away, but how incredibly overinflated are your egos that you think that what America wants to watch is your 1 hour of boring, stuffy commentators talking about the condition of dirt, and how horses are "feeling" rather than the deciding game in one of the most exciting sports in North America. Not only the deciding game, but the sudden death overtime period of that game, where Buffalo had to win or their season was over. Since you were hopefully watching your own programming this afternoon, Ottawa won, and therefore is in their first Stanley Cup Final ever. How many of your commentators are reaching the pinnacle of their careers this Saturday afternoon? How many of the horses running today can claim that they've invigorated their city, captivated their fans? How many people will be talking about the Preakness over the next 2 weeks, compared to talking about the Stanley Cup Finals? How many people will still be talking about freaking Barbaro (by the way, a touching tribute, good thing you found the time to reschedule it) in 4 years, compared to how many will be talking about Crosby, Ovechkin, Malkin, and the Staal brothers? Pushing your coverage to VS doesn't absolve what you did, a lot of people that receive NBC don't get VS and in fact, I'd bet that horse racing "fans" are decidedly wealthier than hockey fans, and therefore maybe next year you should push your pre-show to VS, and let the live coverage of the actual "SPORT" stay on NBC. I hope the NHL moves to another network, you've proven you have no business being the national face of the NHL. Good luck riding your horses into the sunset.

Here's a little hint, what are 20-30 year old males interested in? Not pasty white guys talking about dirt. Not horses running in circles. Their interested in hitting, goal scoring, great saves, and the energy that playoff hockey brings. Not that I was watching your coverage of todays game, I was busy watching lacrosse on FSNY, all those ad dollars down the drain for you I suppose. Next time you have an hour to blow, instead of a tribute to Barbaro "a nations horse" or some guy talking about how wet some dirt is, maybe you should spend it on another sport that rich 18-24 males like to watch, lacrosse. After disrespecting one of my favorite sports, I'll personally be making a point of never buying something advertised during your programming. Hopefully NBC sports won't ever carry lacrosse games though, I'd hate to have the coverage cut away to the pre-show for a synchronized fishing event at a season changing moment in the game.

While I'd be amazed if any of you bothered to respond, I'd love to hear your reasoning for the decision. I may not be a powerful network executive, but I can tell you for sure if I was, I wouldn't make the same mistake you did.

microsoft rattles it's sabers, sun responds

posted 05/16/2007 17:18:32 by matt flesch-kincaid: 38, grade level: 12 commentscomments(0) linklink
so microsoft has made the claim to anyone who will listen that open source software violates 235 microsoft patents. they say that something must be done by the open source developers or users to pay royalties for using these pieces of microsoft ip. sun responded by directly attacking microsoft for it's openly hostile attitude toward open source. sun's ceo and president jonathan schwartz pulls out all the stops with great statements including in essence, we decided to innovate, not litigate. touché.

sesame street teaches tcp

posted 05/16/2007 12:19:32 by matt flesch-kincaid: 62, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
i'd love to see pbs run a real sesame street episode about tcp and maybe throw in net neutrality. i'd love to hear snuffy's thoughts on telcos trying to ruin the internet.

omg, digg g0t tim3zd

posted 05/03/2007 17:05:58 by matt flesch-kincaid: 60, grade level: 10 commentscomments(0) linklink
so yes, as kyle points out, the magical number, has gotten covered by the prestigious new york times. i love when they stray outside their comfort zone, and cover news they know nothing about. way to go, nambla, what genius gave the thumbs up to those lawsuits? oh and the irony and recursion of a story about digg, in the new york times, being dugg, and the times' website has a link to digg stories, wow, my head hurts. and just in case you need some extra beaters

to me wearing a funny tshirt is dressing up

posted 05/01/2007 08:13:27 by matt flesch-kincaid: 37, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
the folks at mule design have some very funny t-shirts in their feed store each shirt has a bit of back story on it's specific page: (the first is less funny, more true)