A note from the future

This site represents things that I, Matt Dragon, though worthy of posting to the internet to be publicly consumed from age 18-27. Many of those things were, and are, wrong. I used words here at the time I hadn't bothered to educate myself about the harms of. The fact they were more widely used then doesn't absolve my use of them. Many of my opinions reek of what I now understand to be white male privilege.

But I'm not going to take those posts or this site down. For one because it wouldn't matter, the internet is forever and people would still be able to find it. But also because it's important to acknowledge that people should and do change over time. Merely changing doesn't reverse the wrongs or forgive us of what we said or did before. But the actions we take in response to those personal changes should be evaluated to see if they can offset at least some of the harms we caused. I no longer believe people are beyond redemption if they put in the work and the communities their prior words or acts hurt decide to accept their help going forward.

Taking this down entirely wouldn't address the harms nor hold me accountable. So instead I'm adding this note and asking people to evaluate for themselves if they think that 2021 Matt has done enough to offset 2010 Matt. To be honest, these were not my worst takes. Around this time I also stated less publicly that when people run from the police they should hit them with their cars to catch them. If you run you must have done something, right? I had an argument with someone about how no one who wasn't guilty would ever confess to a crime. (Sorry random dude in MegaBYTES)

Obviously those takes were bad, uninformed, and I was wrong for voicing then at the time. I share them because I feel they represent how easy it was to feel empowered as a white male teenager and young adult despite knowing almost nothing. I share them because I think they represent the rock bottom of my opinions and show how much someone's thoughts can change when you simply seek out first hand knowledge and then listen.

Those are just terrible opinions I can remember right now. I'm sure there were others. I haven't exhaustively read all the posts here so there may be similar or worse things I said here. But today, I'm writing letters to the editor about the need for civilian oversight over jails and the police and advocating for the police to be taken out of traffic enforcement. I'm speaking at County Commissioners meetings about civilian jail oversight and the need for accountability. I'm constantly trying to unlearn my bad habits and challenge my initial responses to things. Not because the world has changed but because I have learned to listen. Because people took the risk, the time, and the emotional effort to share and luckily I realized I needed to hear them.

So I leave this up, with this now lengthy disclaimer to try to push folks reading my bad takes to also learn to listen, and to be explicit, not always and only listen to white dudes like me. Where I'm at now, I'm trying to lift other voices. Folks actually experiencing the struggles I have ideas about trying to lessen or solve. Folks who's opinions I trust not because they have degrees or status, but because they're talking about their community, their friends, their family, their life, their struggles. For some of my later posts elsewhere, I chose to channel Dennis Miller when naming that blog. That decision didn't age any better than he did. He's now a racist bigot or at least he is publicly, maybe he always was. He's probably beyond redemption at this point. Andrew Gutmann is probably beyond redemption too, but it's honestly not my decision. I think people definitely can change, and they can change for better or for worse.

So I've done some more recent writing elsewhere that, if you want to read it, is definitely more informed, less self absorbed, with fewer blind spots, and just generally better all around.

My whiteness and maleness have given me all the second, third, and fourth chances anyone could ever ask for. It's up to me to prove I've changed for the better. Hopefully this is a step in that direction.

net neutrality commercial flat out lies

posted 10/20/2006 15:37:40 by matt flesch-kincaid: 55, grade level: 10 commentscomments(0) linklink
while watching penguins games on fox sports ny the past two nights, i have seen a net neutrality commercial that i'm actually surprised i haven't found any mention of on the internet. it starts out looking like an election style attack ad. it then goes on to talk about how net neutrality is a bunch of "googly" words that "you" don't understand. it then goes on to say that net neutrality will make "you" pay for what big companies are doing. i can't believe someone is ballsy enough to make and put this commercial on the air. the telcomm companies are already getting paid twice, on the in and on the out. they want companies like google to pay more to ensure a certain level of service. of course, google already has this level of service, so what they are really saying is "give us more money or we'll start intentionally degrading your service."

my best analogy for net neutrality is that currently the internet is like 95 in delaware. you pay to get in, and you pay to get out, and what happens in between is out of your control. what the telcomm companies want to do is make you pay to get in, pay to drive more than 5 miles/hour while in the state, and then pay to get out as well. what's scary is that there's no way google's going to run a counter ad, so this is all "normal" people are going to hear about this.

what's funny is that the telcomms think that google needs their customers more than their customers need google. all it would take to break the telcomm's will would be google putting an announcement up on their site whenever one of those companies' customers hit their site. "your internet provider is forcing your access to google to be slower and less reliable than it was last week. contact their customer support here: 555-555-5555" and the call center would explode. i know that the internet, left to it's own devices, will keep this from happening. my concern is people like senator stevens getting involved with the telcomm's telling him that google is clogging the tubes.
his analogy was a little off in the telcomm's eyes they probably thought it should have looked more like this:


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