A note from the future

This site represents things that I, Matt Dragon, though worthy of posting to the internet to be publicly consumed from age 18-27. Many of those things were, and are, wrong. I used words here at the time I hadn't bothered to educate myself about the harms of. The fact they were more widely used then doesn't absolve my use of them. Many of my opinions reek of what I now understand to be white male privilege.

But I'm not going to take those posts or this site down. For one because it wouldn't matter, the internet is forever and people would still be able to find it. But also because it's important to acknowledge that people should and do change over time. Merely changing doesn't reverse the wrongs or forgive us of what we said or did before. But the actions we take in response to those personal changes should be evaluated to see if they can offset at least some of the harms we caused. I no longer believe people are beyond redemption if they put in the work and the communities their prior words or acts hurt decide to accept their help going forward.

Taking this down entirely wouldn't address the harms nor hold me accountable. So instead I'm adding this note and asking people to evaluate for themselves if they think that 2021 Matt has done enough to offset 2010 Matt. To be honest, these were not my worst takes. Around this time I also stated less publicly that when people run from the police they should hit them with their cars to catch them. If you run you must have done something, right? I had an argument with someone about how no one who wasn't guilty would ever confess to a crime. (Sorry random dude in MegaBYTES)

Obviously those takes were bad, uninformed, and I was wrong for voicing then at the time. I share them because I feel they represent how easy it was to feel empowered as a white male teenager and young adult despite knowing almost nothing. I share them because I think they represent the rock bottom of my opinions and show how much someone's thoughts can change when you simply seek out first hand knowledge and then listen.

Those are just terrible opinions I can remember right now. I'm sure there were others. I haven't exhaustively read all the posts here so there may be similar or worse things I said here. But today, I'm writing letters to the editor about the need for civilian oversight over jails and the police and advocating for the police to be taken out of traffic enforcement. I'm speaking at County Commissioners meetings about civilian jail oversight and the need for accountability. I'm constantly trying to unlearn my bad habits and challenge my initial responses to things. Not because the world has changed but because I have learned to listen. Because people took the risk, the time, and the emotional effort to share and luckily I realized I needed to hear them.

So I leave this up, with this now lengthy disclaimer to try to push folks reading my bad takes to also learn to listen, and to be explicit, not always and only listen to white dudes like me. Where I'm at now, I'm trying to lift other voices. Folks actually experiencing the struggles I have ideas about trying to lessen or solve. Folks who's opinions I trust not because they have degrees or status, but because they're talking about their community, their friends, their family, their life, their struggles. For some of my later posts elsewhere, I chose to channel Dennis Miller when naming that blog. That decision didn't age any better than he did. He's now a racist bigot or at least he is publicly, maybe he always was. He's probably beyond redemption at this point. Andrew Gutmann is probably beyond redemption too, but it's honestly not my decision. I think people definitely can change, and they can change for better or for worse.

So I've done some more recent writing elsewhere that, if you want to read it, is definitely more informed, less self absorbed, with fewer blind spots, and just generally better all around.

My whiteness and maleness have given me all the second, third, and fourth chances anyone could ever ask for. It's up to me to prove I've changed for the better. Hopefully this is a step in that direction.

found this awhile ago but never remembered to post it

posted 12/19/2005 10:09:39 by matt flesch-kincaid: 57, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
this says something about how far we as a society have fallen...

just awesome...

posted 12/19/2005 10:08:27 by matt flesch-kincaid: 95, grade level: 1 commentscomments(0) linklink
just read it nothing i say can match this.

get off my tv you douchebag...

posted 12/18/2005 22:01:58 by matt flesch-kincaid: 55, grade level: 12 commentscomments(0) linklink
when i turn on fox at 9pm on a sunday night i do not ever under any circumstances see this douchbag
he is not my president, he wasn't my fault either time, and i think that we all know who would make a better president...
that's right, you've all been thinking it, i actually said it.

they don't even pretend to not be killing off freedom of the press

posted 12/18/2005 13:16:29 by matt flesch-kincaid: -5, grade level: 24 commentscomments(0) linklink
"After The New York Times reported, and CNN confirmed, a claim that Bush gave the National Security Agency license to eavesdrop on Americans communicating with people overseas, the president said that his actions were permissible, but that leaking the revelation to the media was illegal." other things likely to become illegal and a threat to national security, democracy, freedom of speech, abortion, not being a religious fanatic, evolution, the phrase "happy holidays", non-white anglosaxon protestants, and people who are mean to poor little georgy bush.

changing the way a component displays in a framework

posted 12/18/2005 11:27:19 by matt flesch-kincaid: 56, grade level: 11 commentscomments(0) linklink
so i know googling for answers to my problems in people's blogs has helped me in the past so i figured why not... i ran into a problem where i need to display a form object in my framework with each element in the form either wrapped in table rows or in divs, etc. so I think the best solution is to add a reference to a display class to the form class. rather than calling the form classes own display method it would call the display class's display method. the benefit to this would be you could change the display object between calls to display and it would display differently. the other benefit is i can have the constructor for the form object set the display object to itself ($this in php) and it'll handle the default case. then if i need to change the way something is going to display i can just set ($form->displayObject) to an object that has the display method I want to use. I guess the only complicating factor is my display object will have to have a link back to my form object so it can get at the data for the form, but that's manageable.

a little piece of delbarton history...

posted 12/16/2005 16:28:13 by matt flesch-kincaid: 21, grade level: 25 commentscomments(0) linklink
2005 Topps Chrome Refractor Autograph of Wes Swackhamer
Unfortunately the auction is already closed, but come on, you know you want one. You want to be like "I went to highschool with that kid, and I remember when he got caught driving drunk with two other kids who weren't as good at sports as he was so they got kicked out"

i always knew that guy was up to no good...

posted 12/05/2005 12:15:50 by matt flesch-kincaid: 57, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
from flats: ronald mcdonald robs a wendy's. oh boston, how i'd love to hear you say "wicked" and pronounce his name as rahnald machdanald while covering this story.

jack thompson 0 - gamers 100,000,000

posted 11/20/2005 15:23:55 by matt flesch-kincaid: 2, grade level: 29 commentscomments(0) linklink
jack "douchebag" thompson has been making an ass of himself recently via a well publicized spat with penny-arcade, and now is complaining to amazon about bad reviews and bad ratings as he gets "0wn3d" by gamers who are obviously smarter, more tech savy, and oh right, not out murdering people. oh and it shouldn't go without mention that jack recently had his law license yanked in alabama

who's laughing now...

posted 11/14/2005 23:25:51 by matt flesch-kincaid: 19, grade level: 13 commentscomments(0) linklink
it looks like someone just pointed him in the direction of reality

greetings and salutations

posted 11/12/2005 00:23:24 by joe flesch-kincaid: 63, grade level: 10 commentscomments(0) linklink
dear the world,

just letting you know i have chosen this domain as the place from which i shall spew my infinite knowledge and wisdom. it will probably be clear when i post as i am at least a tad less left-leaning than my doughy associate. of course, thats like saying i am less dorky than fez or like soccer and/or apple juice less than jon yardley. take it as you will.


i couldn't make this up if i tried.

posted 11/11/2005 00:03:36 by matt flesch-kincaid: 11, grade level: 24 commentscomments(0) linklink
pat robinson has told pennsylvania residents that he would not be suprised if a disaster struck the state because they voted eight intelligent design supporting schoolboard members out of office. guess since his prayers have been answered on the supreme court front he's moving on to bigger and better things

yeah, that's a site i had to put my picture on for work

posted 11/10/2005 21:07:56 by matt flesch-kincaid: 121, grade level: -3 commentscomments(0) linklink

your tax dollars at work..

posted 10/25/2005 13:37:06 by matt flesch-kincaid: 43, grade level: 12 commentscomments(0) linklink
the new york times reports on the bush administration sending a cease and desist letter to the onion for using the presidential seal. apparently the white house doesn't get the joke. i'm actually kind of amazed that the onion hasn't be noticed before this by a white house that's obviously hellbent on not letting dissent have a voice.

they should have held a fund raiser

posted 10/19/2005 19:23:09 by matt flesch-kincaid: 38, grade level: 17 commentscomments(0) linklink
greatest cnn headline ever "Arrest warrant issued for DeLay" and i sure as hell would have paid to see tom delay have to turn him self in on an arrest warrant, get fingerprinted, and have a mug shot taken.

why have 4GB when you can have 200...

posted 10/05/2005 11:04:27 by matt flesch-kincaid: 60, grade level: 7 commentscomments(0) linklink
these guys mounted a 200GB hard drive to their ipod nano. the result? 150,000+ minutes of music...and 6 minutes of battery life. i used to think i had a lot of free time, but the internet has told me that others out there, have substantially more.

i'm not a racist

posted 09/30/2005 08:05:22 by matt flesch-kincaid: 37, grade level: 17 commentscomments(0) linklink
so this douchebag says during a tv interview that aborting "every black baby in this country" would reduce the crime rate. upon being attacked by congressional democrats for his comments he defended himself by saying "i'm not racist," which is kind of like kevin federline saying, "i'm not a giant douchebag, who's child was born wearing a trucker hat, and will start up a methlab while still in his crib." or me saying "i'm not white" oh and just when you thought this couldn't get any better, he is a former secretary of education, where his plans included, don't teach the black kids, we'll take care of them a different way.


posted 09/18/2005 23:05:30 by matt flesch-kincaid: 48, grade level: 12 commentscomments(0) linklink
how much you want to bet the federal response to any hurricane that slams florida will be better than the response to katrina. not of course because we learn from our mistakes, but because i mean if you're gonna help anyone you have to help your brother. especially when you're trying to pass the whitehouse on to him, and you've run your approval rating into the ground.

this guy is awesome

posted 08/24/2005 09:40:39 by matt flesch-kincaid: 64, grade level: 6 commentscomments(0) linklink
this guy wore these to bush's speech yesterday. everyone should send him $50 bucks cause he's awesome.

I knew BYU was good for something...

posted 08/23/2005 10:46:25 by matt flesch-kincaid: 47, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
"Meanwhile, Brigham Young University led "stone cold sober" schools for the eighth straight year." Yay extreme Christianity!

god i love computers...

posted 08/11/2005 22:44:53 by matt flesch-kincaid: 41, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
now that there's this, all i need is a fridge, toliet, and and coffee maker that are usb powered, and i'll never have to leave the computer

so stupid it hurts...

posted 08/09/2005 17:42:24 by matt flesch-kincaid: 59, grade level: 10 commentscomments(0) linklink
too bad this auction ended, i could really use a few bottles of this awesome stuff. "If you are a winner, Sign In for your status." more like "If you were dumb enough to bid on this we've sent people to kill you." BTW joe and i totally call selling these sprays for 1) cars, 2) running, 3) bikes and skateboards, 4) computers


posted 06/08/2005 22:47:56 by matt flesch-kincaid: 102, grade level: -0 commentscomments(0) linklink
now this is how you keep your machine cool

it's like soviet russia, but without the bread lines

posted 06/08/2005 22:43:40 by matt flesch-kincaid: 62, grade level: 8 commentscomments(0) linklink
of course once the shrub king kills off social security we might have to fall back to breadlines.

new rss feed

posted 06/07/2005 17:24:43 by matt flesch-kincaid: 78, grade level: 3 commentscomments(0) linklink
i've reimplemented the rss feed for the site... go nuts joe.

interesting to note

posted 06/07/2005 16:35:10 by matt flesch-kincaid: 70, grade level: 6 commentscomments(0) linklink
i've had a three years running drought of postings in may... god i love useless random statistics, also the last post was my 200th, that makes this the 201st.

long time coming...

posted 06/07/2005 16:32:46 by matt flesch-kincaid: 74, grade level: 4 commentscomments(0) linklink
both in me posting and in graduating, but lets see, does this seem to be worth $160,000?

why i hate everyone in america, or at least 60% of 80% of america

posted 04/13/2005 22:04:04 by matt flesch-kincaid: 41, grade level: 11 commentscomments(0) linklink
this article that discusses how 80% of americans support censoring blog content, specifically those that publish personal information about other citizens. however, the only flaw in these people's opinion, is that only 40% of the survey respondents had ever even seen a blog. 30% hadn't ever heard of blogs, and another 30% had never seen a blog. now i can't say that their opinion is wrong, because it is their opinion, but i can say that anyone who has such a strong opinion about something they know nothing about is one of two things: 1) retarded, 2) an up and coming republican

you sir, are an idiot...

posted 03/25/2005 11:36:23 by matt flesch-kincaid: 29, grade level: 15 commentscomments(0) linklink
stolen from bruck's profile: this idiot thinks that giving college students a huge, annoying project, that will never amount to anything useful, will bring them together. i think they can't really be a college student, because what is college aside from a 4 year long huge, annoying project, that will never amount to anything useful?

categories and archive

posted 02/16/2005 20:14:38 by matt flesch-kincaid: 41, grade level: 11 commentscomments(0) linklink
I've gone ahead and implemented both categories and the archive links you see on the left hand navigation now.

a little facebook quiz

posted 02/10/2005 23:14:22 by matt flesch-kincaid: 79, grade level: 3 commentscomments(0) linklink
how can you be a member of the groups "dubya - 4 more years" and "jon stewart for president"?!?! are you flipping retarded? how do these people get into this school? you're the people who need the death lane closed aren't you?

death lane, we hardly knew yee

posted 02/02/2005 21:57:05 by matt flesch-kincaid: 37, grade level: 16 commentscomments(0) linklink
so we just got an email from the president of the university announcing they were closing the "death lane" on charles st. now this lane is meerly a lane that is only open during morning rushhour, and provides a single lane opposite the direction of normal travel for that side of the road. they've closed this "death lane," which by the way is closed 98% of the day anyway during which cars still drive down it, i guess the drivers are hopkins grads, because apparently hopkins students were never taught to look both ways before crossing the street. instead of closing the lane, maybe we should just have all the freshman take my new class "crossing the street 101: a pre-med's guide to those crazy metal boxes with wheels that live between you and the library." i feel having a class is much more effective that altering the city of balitmore's traffic patterns to protect those students who manage to stay one step ahead of natural selection.
i can see the next email now, "after working with the city we have gotten permission to build a giant dome over the whole campus to protect our dumbass students from life."

poor hobbes

posted 01/30/2005 19:53:45 by matt flesch-kincaid: 52, grade level: 12 commentscomments(0) linklink
this is sad, and kinda funny, but mostly sad, and a little disturbing, but largely hits the nail on the head of the current generation of parents and kids.

a nice jaunt through the norwegian countryside

posted 01/26/2005 10:36:36 by matt flesch-kincaid: 62, grade level: 9 commentscomments(0) linklink
i know norway is cold and dreary right now, but does that really require a jaunt through europe to keep you feeling ok?
doing this search on mappoint between to towns in norway sends you through england, france, belgium, and several other european countries just to get you down the street. here's the mappoint directions for what should be a 482 mile, 12 hour trip.

liberal media got you down? just buy them off..

posted 01/07/2005 16:07:31 by matt flesch-kincaid: 61, grade level: 11 commentscomments(0) linklink
so it seems the bush administration in an attempt to sell their "no child left behind" steaming pile of sh*t, paid a pundit to push their agenda to the people. they paid armstrong williams, a prominent (don't worry i've never heard of him either) black pundit, $240,000 to push their ideas as part of his syndicated tv and radio shows. maybe this is why the media never attacks bush, you know not to bite the hand that feeds you. i wonder how much members of the press core get paid to not ask questions with words longer than 6 letters in them?